It's been so long people. The last two weeks was great. First time clubbing for the sake of daniel laksana, B's birthday, My sister's keeper ( F-ing nice movie ) and lots of frolick :D

And B's birthday was greatttt. Celebrated B's birthday by surprising her with a cake under her block. What a chance to meet up with mbjjd :D I can only say i miss the meet-ups with them. 30th ! its a must go.

And Yesterday.
Went out with baby kuku for danial's concert <3
Movie ( Jennifer's body ) and Nihon Mura before that.
One word = <3
Love you baby :D

And to MBJ having A levels tmrw. Best of luck :D

It can only get better

- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Sorry Baby,

I know i've been freaking nonsensical / out of mind recently, thanks for holding up with me.

i love you and i really do. Just like i always did <3

Haven't been updating this shitty page for quite some time and that already tells you how occupied i was during holidays. Holidays was just pure fun man, camps, drinking, movies, going out, really enjoyed it.

But now, school has started and i guess it won't be that bad too ( at least you get occupied daily and see your crazy and gay classmates ) . Just have to switch back to the routine daily life and wake up early. Timetable is pretty ok ( at least no long long long long long breaks in between ), just that on thursday, it will be a hell of a day from 8 to 5 with only lunch break. And i still haven't got used to waking up early daily and taking long bus rides home alone ( damn it no one stays at sengkang) . Imagine the latest time class start is 10 ?!!

But nvm, sacrifices have to be made when good grades are to be acheived.
Accumulative GPA 3.5 and get into a local U Sean.
The pilot route would be a bonus but i guess it may not be there for you anymore given your shitty eyesight ( F )

Ignorance is bliss
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Things change don't they. And now i really wonder who i really am.

Maybe this is what we call Life. Maybe i am asking too much for my life.

Just an existence.
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

F1 has ended ! The whole six days plus overtime was shagged shagged and shagged. Felt totally relieved after the last day of work. Having the thoughts of money rolling into my bank =]

And on the 29th

Happy Birthday to you !

Happy birthday baby, its finally your 18th and all i'd hoped was to make you smile the whole day on your special day. You know how much i love you eh. Just like the ballon that flew off. Its higher than the galaxy and it will just keep rising and rising i promise. Hope you enjoyed your 18th and lets not forget the 19th, 20th, 21st........ so many more birthday we are celebrating together =]

And baby,

I LOVE YOU <3

Hero

- Sean.T (1991 - )

WOHOOO ! Holidays had been great. Pretty occupied i must say. And next week, it will be F1 !!! Back to carrying ice. Iceman for a week i guess. But never mind, it just means more money after comex =] But i will miss a special day =[

Long week ahead, long time ahead

- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

The road may be long, but the beautiful sunset will keep us going on.

I am sorry that i can be pretty sensitive at time. Sometimes guys just aren't as strong as girls think they are. We have our emotional times, we try to hide, but at times you just can't control. Thats human. I just hope we could have more time to spend my girl, i know its not your fault and i am sorry that i sort of blamed you. There is just so much i want to say to you, so much that i do not know where to start. But just know this.

I don't love you like i did yesterday,

because my love for you grows stronger by the day.

Lets grow stronger

- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

EXAMS ARE OVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At least now i can have peace in my mind that i completed this sem :D

F1
Camps
Movies
Gatherings
Tonning

Here i come !!!!!!!!!!

Contented
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Finally 18 ! Its a new phase of life =]
Its the age which you are supposed to serve the nation but too bad i am still schooling =]
Its the age in which you really start to think and plan for the future =]
Its the age you should mature =]
Its the age where you can drive =]
Its the age you can drink =]
Its the age where you are finally considered a young adult =]

I enjoyed my 18th birthday =] Celebration with Mbjjd on fri was just great and i love the photo frame from them. Really love them, best clique for life =]

And also, the best birthday present i could ask for. A surprise from YOU, sngyixin. Really appreciate you sacrificing your sleep and i swear the construction site sound was damn funny ! Getting to see you on my birthday was just what i wished for the most. You granted my wish and made my special day even more special. I love you and will always do, pinky promise =]

The best i could ever ask
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Running away and sometimes ignorance may lead to the best.

Exams
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

My mind may wander but not my heart.

Trust
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

int int study
int int play
int int holiday

private void studyplanButton_Click(object sender, EventArgs e)
{

if ( studyCheckBox.Checked = true )
{
resultLabel.Text = "Great job, You are a good boy Sean" ;
}
else if ( playCheckBox.Checked = true )
{
resultLabel.Text = "NO MORE PLAYING, GET TO YOUR BOOKS" ;
}
else ( holidayCheckBox.Checked = true )
{
resultLabel.Text = "Ah lai shiooookk ! Play like no tmrw =] No one cares now " ;
}

}

All right, just being traumatised by APPG question 3.
A freaking 45/100 marks question most likely to be gone.
Nvm, its now time to mug for the two papers left.

Exams
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

EXAMS COMING. WHOEVER CAN BLESS ME BLESS ME.

Tracks of my smile
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Can i just say you are the one that made me love like never before. I want to hold your hand and walk the long road with you. I want to hug you tight and never let go of you. Give me the chance will you. Nothing is perfect, nothing will ever be, so why not just let things be ?

I can only say i really love you
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Life is fragile, anything could happen. Treasure life the moment you are living. Live it to the best you can. For you never know what would happen next.

And for a proper post. Agm photos.

Kiss the rain

- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Isn't kiss the rain beautiful ?
I think it is.

OMG F CCT TMRW !
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Living life isn't an easy job, but it is the most precious thing human could ever ask for.

I want to live life strong, i want to live life happy.
But sometimes, setbacks bring this up to me.
Life is tiring, it really is.
Sometimes,
I feel like giving up.
Sometimes,
i feel like falling to the ground and cry out loud.

But, memories just tell me how beautiful life is, how beautiful life can really be.
Life really isn't an easy job, its the hardest ever.
But, life is blissful, life is beautiful, life is the most precious thing you could ever have.
I am only given this one chance in life, i don't want to fail, i don't want to make a mistake.
No one wants to.
But, life doesn't work this way, everyone fail in their life.
Whether its once, twice or countless time.
But i want to stop making wrong choices, i want to do all the right stuffs.
I want to get back that mentality.
And, i want to tell you, i know my choice is right, i always thought so.
ily.

Given a choice, i will still choose to go through what i have failed in my life, cos they made me stronger.
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Sometimes i ask myself is being emotional and sensitive really that bad?
And sometimes, my answer is yes.
But i think its never easy to control your very own emotions, never.

And i realised something.
When you are at the worst of mood.
Tell yourself,
This is life =]
I always tell myself that life is a drama and the only difference is that it is written by you yourself.
And you, yourself, decides whether you will be happy, sad or emotional.
So therefore guys, this is life yeah.
Be happy with life.
But i think i would have to first tell that to myself =]

This is life, really.
Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Alright, i cant upload AGM pics, so just a quiz which i find the results shocking.

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

AGM is over. I must really say big thanks to the helpers ! People like YANG YANG, Wei ting, kennysss, keng wee and more ! They were the one who made the program run smoothly=]
Performers eugene and friend did great too ! Love their tricks =]
And KAH HO ! You played well lah ! Serious shit =] You also did a big part in making the successful one =]
Great job everyone !
Ok, AGM DONE !!! Sleep.

I think it still
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Losing will never make you a loser. You only become a real loser when your mistake isn't learnt =]

AGM !
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

I think i sort of lost my direction in life.

I do not know what i really want now.
I do not know what i should do now.
I do not know how to stay happy now.

I must say there are just so much things still uncovered in life.
So much that they make life so special.

And gosh i just got 4 days of Mc, boredom will haunt me =[

Let go?
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Primary school class gathering yesterday. It was darn cool i swear ! Imagine meeting up with your friends you've never seen for years =] To my surprise, there was no awkwardness between us ! We just got so much to talk and say about the past =] And i only have one thing to say - Time flies, but your friends never =]

Disillusioned

- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Saw this post on lessons life taught me and i find it very nice and true. Its has 40++ qoutes but these few are the ones i really like =]
Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland

Life isn't fair, but it's still good
When in doubt, just take the next small step.
Life is too short to waste time hating anyone
You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present
Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about
If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
What other people think of you is none of your business.
Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift =]

I cared in the end
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Wohoo ! Busy busy busy !

Changed

-Sean.T ( 1991 - )

AMTL PROJECT DONE !!!!! Never mind its days after deadline but at least its done. Like a rock off my shoulder seriously ! i feel more relaxed now. Just left with camp closing to do and i think i will feel even less tensed up =]=]=]

Persevere
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

PROJECTS - UNDONE

Sums up all
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Life is now fun fun and fun ! Great great friends around. Playing around everyday ! I am having fun for sure =] But its time to buck up in studies alr i swear !

Permanent
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

This is life, nothing is fair. If life was fair, it wouldn't be as interesting anymore =]
I am just having some serious mixed feelings now. But, i feel everything will still go fine in the end if i don't think as much =]

I think the reason holding back hatred is the soft spot i've seen and believe in you. Thats the thing holding me back tight.

Just let it flow.
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

First of all, i would like to say a very BIG SORRY to all my friends who had to tolerate my emotion bust up for the past few days. I was too crazy i think. I totally let my emotions take over the control of my mind and i think i might have offended a few of you. Sorry yeah =]

But seriously i promise you guys and myself i am saying this for the very last time. I thought it through thoroughly. Over and over again.
I was hurt once, i was hurt twice. And if there is a third time i hurt myself, it think it would be because i can't get over my very ownself.
I control my fate, happy or sad. I have my own life, only one. I am only going to stay happy, i am not going to ruin my studies, i am only going to emerge stronger =]
I swear to myself i am not going to get stuck in there anymore. A endless hole i fallen in for months and never really got out at all. I will climb out and i know i can. And i know i got great friends all around me who really care =]

P.s. I removed the last post as i felt that it was all written out of anger. It was written from only my very own view, not the other party. No one is seriously at fault and no one will ever be.

Its all in the mind =]
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Some people say fate will decide our future.
But it is your life.
And for that, i think i will be the one writing my future =]

Fresh as new.
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Everything that happen has it's own cause.
Every choice that is made has it's reason behind it.
And for every obstacle you face, its either you learn to accept or learn to lose.
And for that, i will learn to adapt because it is worth everything for.
You don't have to change a bit, just be yourself because that is who i've liked =]

Permanent
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Back from challenger's camp. Not a bad camp actually. Really great events planned that will help us excel in our leadership skills.
ECE camp on sunday, i bet it will be as fun =]

If one day i ponder, it will be about my ability, not yours.
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Camps are coming ! Challengers and ECE Pioneer Camp ! Both will be fun for sure =]

presence
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

COMMON TEST IS OVER ! But, i think i freaking screwed up my ACDA =[ I think most probably i am going to fail it... And that is going to be the first common test that i had ever failed before.
Pretty dissapointed with myself actually. Once again not studying this semester yet again. I really need to buck up myself in studies. I want a good paying job in the future. I want my family to live well and i know i can do it but i am not putting in the efforts =[ Just pretty dissapointed, thats all =[

You are so beautiful, to me
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Common Test is almost over ! Just one more paper and it will be holidays ! Can't wait for the camps and outings during holiday =]

♥ U!X !人

-Sean.T ( 1991 - )

I may not be the best,
I may not have the best,
I may not understand the best,
But, for sure, i will give my best.

Pixelated
-Sean.T ( 1991 - )

I think i wish it is.

Pixelated
-Sean.T ( 1991 - )

It takes time and effort, but for each and every step we move, it would be what i treasure the most now =]

Common test !
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Common Test coming and i know nuts about ACDA, knows little about APPG and i am not confident in my EM3A.
I miss mbjjd, i miss soccer.

But i no longer miss you and i swear this is the last time i am saying this =]
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Common Test coming, Holiday coming and pay has CAME alr ! Wait for it ok josiah =]

I wish wish wish

- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

I am in love with the song Endless Love ! Both danny gokey's and Kenny G's version. The song just keep running through my mind and i think its the best love song ever =]
ENPS pratical test tmrw, hope i can remember the processes.

I think i have bad communication skills. Do I ?
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Midnight movie with yixin, john and alex =] Night at the meuseum II. Not a bad show and somemore we had john's merc to drive us home ! Thanks aye john =]
But perhaps it will be some time before another movie outing as this coming week is going to be a hell of a week i guess. Preparation for common test and 'sub-comm' stuffs. Do come and join ECE 'sub-comm' yeah !
Last but not least,
Happy birthday Da Peng ! Try not to speak nonsense when drunk aye ! HAHA !

If
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

ENDLESS LOVE

Endless love

-Sean.T ( 1991 - )

HAPPY POST FOR MY 'SISTER' WHO ARRIVED BACK SAFELY WITHOUT SWINE FLU !
I am so
happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy
But seriously, i am pretty contented with my life now =] Its just that school work are giving me some fucked up time. But nevertheless, i am still happy ! Stop saying i emo , say yh =]

Love life
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

School's timetable was crazy for the past two days. Lessons from 8 - 5 !!! Plus, there was a talk after school yesterday. One word - shagged =[
Besides school, planning of the upcoming camp had also been crazy. Been rushing like mad with john and nicholas yesterday to settle the budget proposal in order to start the planning for the camp. My fucked up attitude started to surface when i wasnt able to understand and settle the stuffs. Sorry yeah classmates and friends who was 'entertained' with my sucky attitude.
Worst thing of all - Common test soon. Fuck.

Responsibility
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Work yesterday at esplanade with josiah ! Giving out bottles of light coke for FREE ! Throughout the four hours of work, it just shown how cheapo singaporeans were.
Me: ( passes coke out to lady ) Coke for you?
lady: ( Look and turn away ) No thanks =]
Me: its free =]
lady: ( turn back and took the coke )
HAHAHAHA ! But then they can't be blamed. If it was me, i would have taken the coke too =]
Work again next week and in comes the money $$$ =]

The feeling just rocks !
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Some times i think,

Is it really that hard for you to see my like others once again,

Is it really that hard to reply a message,

Is it really that hard to take a joke,

Is it really that hard to talk to me with an open heart,

Is it really that hard to say hi,

Is it really that hard not to not avoid me,

Is it really that hard to be back as friends once again.

And sometimes, i think, is it me that is thinking too much...

Is friendship that hard to ask for?

- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Sore Sore Sore throat throat throat. Meet up with juv dan and jam today for dinner =] Dinner pratically sucks because of the poor poor poor poor poor poor poor poor service of tm's pizza hut. It just SUCKS ! Dun blame me for sulking, because it really SUCKS. All the waiters seem to have IQ lower than 50 and their brains seem to be working on windows 95 ! It just SUCKS ! RARRR!
Besides dinner, meet up with them were great =] Catched up a lot and everyone seems busy like hell. Bandmates still rule my life =]

Confidence is not learnt, it's experienced.
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

The lodging at LOFT was shiok i swear =]
John our vp ! Jo, i have nicer pic of john =]

Back from camp !!!!! To be honest, it wansn't really great and enriching but the people i got to know from the camp were =] The camp's activities were just pratically the same as what we make our freshies do and i only learnt something from the profiling. Not much of leadership... And till now, i still feel holding a candle and having to walk from NP to sunset way and back to KAP was of no purpose ! HAHAHA ! But then, the whole thing is over =] And when i reached home yesterday at 4pm, i pratically just jumped into my bed and slept my way through till 6am the next day for school !
And f*ck, theres AMTL test tmrw and chapter two looks hard.

Have confidence in your work before you cary it out
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Camp for the weekends =]

Sudden rush
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

I miss band a lot after reading jm's blog =[ All the great time in nvsb with crazy bandmates especially batchmates ! From combines to dinner with them after practice and going to concerts with them. All the wonderful memories still remembered clearly. How i wish good times never end =[
I miss jm, siang yew, michelle, berenice, danial, juvenal, hairiandy, jun hao.

Sweet Memories

- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Even if it is just two minutes of true love with that special someone, life would be lived worthwhile and nothing would be too much to sacrifice for.

It never ends.
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Match today in the morning. Nice match from what i felt =] Athough we lost 7-6, we showed fighting spirit closing down the scoreline again and again.
But surely, there is still lots of place for improvements =] I defintely must get rid of my lazy habit of not running when tired !
And also, sorry to those i exchanged words with during the match, especially haiqel. sorry yeah =]

it's feeling, not acting
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

Each and everyone of us can get a partner of our life,
but i believe true love is not what most can find.

Stucked
- Sean.T ( 1991 - )

The hardwork

DANIAL'S 18TH PHOTOS =]

I am tired and worn out by school =[

Life's never a game, it just resembles one.

- Sean.T ( 1991 - )